As a footnote I'll add that as a kid I got to go to a fun music and rhythm class where we learned the repeat sign :|| This sign communicates to the musician to go back to the beginning and do it over again.
Despite being raised in the Catholic faith and never being introduced to the idea of reincarnation as a child I knew early on that I had been here many times before and thought the repeat sign was the perfect thing to add to the end of my name at age 5 to express this idea. I knew I was on a repeat mission.
I've chosen to reclaim that little part of me by expressing my identity in this way Jade :||: Cathy Chicoine
Jade :||: Cathy Chicoine
Who is Jade?
Jade is the name I prefer to be called.
Please allow me to share the story of how this came about...
A couple of years ago I attended a Sound Healing workshop led by Marsha Read with the Centre for Sound Healing. We began on Saturday morning with a simple exercise that had us place our hand over our heart and ask ourselves the question "Who am I today?" Now, up until this point I had not contemplated changing my name nor had I even considered other names. But when we did this simple exercise I was very surprised that the name Jade just flew out of my heart! I wasn't quite sure if it was for me? What was this? Am I supposed to try this on? When I did, I felt a deep settling inside and indeed the name JADE felt like such a good fit. It’s nice, clear, simple & direct. I feel like at my core, at my centre in the place where I know who I am and am in my power I am Jade, maybe it's the name of my higher self which I hope to bring forward into my everyday awareness as I evolve. Yes, I am Jade.
The name I was given at birth however is Cathy Chicoine. This name always felt to me like it had a certain awkwardness about it. It just refused to flow easily from my lips and felt foreign.. When someone asks for your name, you give it to them. That's the way it works. Well mine always felt cumbersome to me and even if I managed to deliver it to the recipient it's often fumbled and dropped which leaves me feeling apologetic at best...
Now my dear mother was sitting right next to me that day at the sound healing retreat and after we all sang and toned her name Donna Rae...it was my turn. When I shared what had just occurred my mom had a surprising reaction. She responded with "I told you I never knew what to call you! I knew you would need to find your own name and that Cathy was just the best at the time but I knew that I couldn't possibly name you!"
Okay, well that makes sense then!
Chicoine is a lovely french name and I've heard it pronounced several different ways...
The English pronunciation I’ve always used is like SHHHH - COIN.
I also hear CHIC - A - WIN or CHIC - OINY and lots of other interesting versions of this last name. The French pronunciation sounds like either SHE - KWAN or SHE- KWHEN. I suppose I could just own it but I’ve always kinda resonated more with my Doukhobor roots anyways, so I just don’t feel particularly connected to the name Cathy Chicoine but legally it is the one that I'll continue to use.
Jade does not have a last name. She is just quite simply & solidly JADE and I am in the process of embracing her and learning to Love her.
By the way I feel it’s worth mentioning here that although I don’t often speak French I do understand it quite well having gone through the French immersion program from K- Gr 12 in Prince Albert where I grew up. Now I’m practicing more since my own kids are enrolled in the French immersion program. Oui! Je suis bilingue!
But please, by all means feel free to call me by either name and I’ll gladly respond. When we meet, you can decide. And yes, you'll find I am most certainly can be a Chatty Cathy!